teenage life and y it sucks

life in my world

2009-12-18T08:31:00.000-08:00

ok have you ever had a friend that keeps putting herself in a bad sittuation. she might be pregnet again and we are not sure who the father is. and not only that she is playing her baby daddy for everything. which in her case i would do somewhat of the same thing but i would not fuck him. i think he is the biggest peace of shit in the whole intire world. i dont care about what everyone elts thinks about him. all i know is that he is the dumbest person in the world and he should die. and not only that he rather give money to his stripper hoe instead of his kids. i dont mind buying them dippers cuz they are like family to me but he should pay for some stuff for them because he is the father. what does everyone elts think about this sittuation?

fucking stupid cunt

2009-03-25T16:28:00.000-07:00

MRS. ALAN IS A FUCKING CUNT AND SHE NEEDS TO LEAVE ME ALONE. I SWEAR TO GOD SHE NEEDS TO FALL DOWN A FLIGHT OF STAIRS AND BREAK HER HIP. SHE SHOULD NOT BE THE PRINCIBAL OF THE BOCES SHE DONT EVEN CARE ABOUT THE STUDENTS, I AM SO PISSED OFF I CANT STOP CRING EVERYTHING IS PISSING ME OFF AND MY MOM DONT EVEN FUCKING CARE THAT I DONT FEEL GOOD SO SHE HAS TO HAVE THE FUICKING TV SO FUCKING LOUD THAT CHINA CAN HEAR HER FUCKING SHOW. I AM IN A BAD MOOD HAVE BEEN ALL DAY

THE ONLY TIME I AM HAPPY IS WHEN I AM WITH ZACH. I CANT TAKE IT ANYMORE I DONT KNOW WHAT TO DO. HE IS THE ONLY ONE THAT CAN CALM ME DOWN.

I HATE EVERYONE LATLY AND ALL I WANNA DO IS RUN AWAY FROM EVERYONE. I NEED TIME FOR JUST ME. AND IT DONT HELP THAT I AM SICK AND BITCHY. I FUCKING HATE PEOPLE TODAY. THERE ARE ONLY A FEW PEOPLE THAT I DONT WANNA KILL..

AND I AM SICK OF FUCKING PEOPLE THAT THINK THE WORLD IS REVOLVED AROUND THEM. THEY NEED TO GROW THE FUCK UP AND I AM ABOUT TO FUCKING PUNCH THAT DAMN TV THAT NO GOOD FUCKING BITCH IS REALLY STARTING TO PISS ME OFF SHE CARES ABOUT NOONE OTHER THEN HERSLEF I AM GOING TO FUCKING FLIP SHIT

am i going to be in hight school forever??

2009-03-10T07:19:00.000-07:00

well i am not saying that i am stupid. all i am saying is that the drama in hight school is going to follow me no matter where i go. people are stupid and think that drama is there life. i for one think that people around the world can not live with out drama.

i wish i could have a drama free life... but i guess i am shit outta luck cuz that is never going to happen no matter how bad i try. i could never be that lucky untill i die. and thats goes for everyone.

see i am living with my mom and i dont want to be thats drama number one, drama number two is i want to move in with my brother and i have to wait drama three my brothers is full of drama all the time. i could keep going but i dont have enough time.

see i wanna have a good life and i wanna be with my boyfriend but the thing is... he is in vinland new jersey and i am here is sidney ny... see how bad that sucks i am upset all the time over it but i will be ok soon whenh he moves up here... yay. :]

but anyways drama in school today iv had it and i bet it is not over yet the day has just started.. so all i have to say is i think i can make it through the day and if i do without loosing my head then i will be fine. i think that NICK needs a new girlfriend but that is me you never know

but i have to get back to work lol i am in auto... i feel like the sec today lol. ttyl homies :]

I LOVE YOU RICH KEITH MAYS ALWAYS ;]

ohhhhh happy days lol

2009-03-05T12:12:00.000-08:00

well i am in a good mood today for some reason or another lol. gina comes home friday and i think i am going to be at my brothers all weekend i am not sure yet i am going to stop over and chill with them today and everything.

i talked to rich last night and i am hoping to talk to him again tonight but i am not sure if he is going to be awake he is working all the damn time and today is his day off. he is going to pay his fine off then he is going to come up here so i dont think that he is going to up here by my birthday and if i dont smoke untill my birthday then he is not going to smoke eather so i am going to see how that goes down lol

school yay

2009-02-12T10:26:00.000-08:00

well i am in school right now in my last period of the day. and like idk i am in an ok mood i am soo waiting to talk to rich today when i get home at 9:00 i am going to try and watch werestiling at eva and shawns like i do all the time. i will tell my mom that i have to babysite today like i do all the time.

and me and rich were on the phone last night for like 2 hours holy shit we talk alot lol he was also drinking last night but it was only beer so its all good :] and i should tell him that he should not do anything to get into trouble if i cant that is only fair :]

but idk i need a smoke and i have to wait untill after school or some shit to go smoke a cigg and i dont want to wait anymore. lol i cant wait untill saturday i know i cant see him and i know its valintines day but i can still talk to him i hope i miss him like crazy. i love this kid with all my heart and more.

but i am going to be going to shawn and evas right after school like i do every damn day and then tomarow i will be there for the weekend :]
and then i can talk to rich at 9 untill saturday that is if i will be able to talk to him at all cuz he falls asleep all the time after he tells me that he is going to call me cuz he is an ass lol well i am going to go peace out :]]] <3333

depretion drama town

2009-02-10T20:29:00.000-08:00

well i cant talk to rich cuz he wont pick up his mother fucking phone i am pissed as all hell nicks dad is a fuck face. everyone sucks balls and i hate everyone from now on. if sothing is wrong i am not going to tell anyone about it i will keep it tomyself cuz no one needs to know what is going on with me. i hate everyone they should all just leave me alone.

i am from now on anti social and no one is ever going to change that. so fuck you fuck you and fuck you

i am sick of the drama bull shit if anyone needs me i will be bleeding in the coner

GO TO FUCKING HELL

upset

2009-02-08T16:22:00.000-08:00

well lets see i have not really talked to rich today.
he wont pick up my calls
he wont text me back
he prolly just dont wanna talk
or his bitch ass fell asleep again
so idk know
i hate feeling like this
i feel like i am puching him to hard to come up here
or even talk to me
he is prolly getting sick of it by now
and i dont blam him :[
i feel like shit right now :[
i wanna cry
i gotta go

tried

2009-02-08T09:44:00.000-08:00

idk i might have a hangover but i did not drink that much last night. but eva and shawn are back and alica is here. and all that good jazz. but i talked to rich all day yesterday and he called me once when i was gone and i thought he was sleeping but i guess i was wrong.

and i am mad hungry. lol i cant wait untill 2:00pm cuz i am going to be4 calling rich and i am sooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo happy:]

cant wait cant wait CANT WAIT

2009-02-06T17:47:00.000-08:00

OMG I AM SOOOOOOOOOOO EXCIDED.... ok well rich got min on his phone and i was texting him today and he said he was going to call me at 9:00 and i hope to god he does i wanna hear his voice sooooooo bad... i am so very very happy♥ i think i am falling for him like hard but i am not going to do anything stupid.

i am so very happy oh i know i am rambiling on but i am excided :] tehehehehehe i love him *smiles*

but all so confused lol

drama town or just a long day?

2009-02-05T10:17:00.000-08:00

well i am in my last period of the day... US history. my sceduale has been cheanged already and it is only my third day here. they have no place to put me. but i am going to see if i can get out of auto class and take something elts instead but i might have to do it next year idk yet.

but anyhow i am just getting over being sick and i cant wait to get back to sidney so i can get a damn smoke from my brothers house. i HAVE to go home tonight or my mom is going to have a flip shit contest. lol i think it is mad funny if you ask me. after this i have my "gym class" lol i dont have gym but they are using this saying that i do... all i do is hang out in or around the gym untill my bus gets here its sooooooooo fun... jkjkjk

anyways problems last night

people tring to kill themselfs and then calling me the bad friend when i tried to help. same old same old shit... drama drama drama

no matter how hard you try and stay away from it the more it comes around it pisses me off more then anything in the world i cant stand it lol... this class is almost done.. FREE DAY yay lol but anyway i am going to go anyway cuz i have nothing better to do so peace out and have a good one i guess...lol OH GINA MIGHT BE COMING BACK TOMAROW I CANT WAIT. like i said she might be coming back idk for sure yet thats just what her sister told me... see ya on the flip side :]

FULL DAY BOCES GIRL (dont make me kick your ass) :]

upset

2009-01-31T16:27:00.000-08:00

i dont know y i am but i cant stop eating i feel fat and i wanna cry when i look at myself in the mirror. idk what to do anymore i wanna crawl in a corner and die idk i gotta go

lovely day

2009-01-28T13:19:00.000-08:00

well i have not talked to rich at all today and it upsets me but i know that he is working so he can move up here.

well ok i woke up and took a shower. eva called and told me she needed help waching some kids hers and one other. so i said i was going to wash the dishes and then go down and help. well my aunt forgot to give my mom walters diperbag so i had to go down to evas get money and go to the store. run home do dishes and wait for henri to get there so she can give me a ride to evas. then i walked in to a room of not so happy kids.

no i am here the kids are all happy and i have to watch ayana and hailey when shawn, eva, alicia, and katlen go to kmart and pricechoper. then i am staying here for the night and i am going to the school earley tomarow so i can ride the bus to boces and talk to teachers about going back fullday boces. so i am really happy other then me not being able to talk to rich... so ya idk prolly gunna smoke another cigg <333 I LOVE RICH MAYS ALWAYS

happy happy day

2009-01-26T15:26:00.000-08:00

well umm today was alright i am not going to get into details about the note but i am not really in a good mood. but ummm anyways talked to rich today happy about that waiting for him to get online. loving him more and more everyday and he makes me so happy.

but idk not too happy about today other then when i talked to rich LOVE YOU BABY CANT WAIT TO SEE YOU.

fucking pissed

2009-01-25T17:16:00.000-08:00

omfg people are stupid i am about to kill a bitch... anthony albro called me a skank because i told him strait up that his gf Kat is fuckin nastey and she is ewwwwwwwww so when i see him i am going to fucking kill him... he needs to stop running his mouth before he eats my fist and i am looking at jail time as it is and i know everyone is going to tell me that it is not worth it but i am sick and tried of people pissing me off and me not being able to do anything about it.

and not only that my boyfrind is not comeing up as soon as we thought he was going to and that upsets me as well i have been upset all fucking day today and people are making it worse... rich is amazing though and i got to talk to him on the phone today so that made me happy.. he makes me happy and i have pics of him on my myspace and my myyearbook... iown his pics two lol i am happy about that... he owns mine as well... but idk like i am tring to be happy but people have been fucking up my happy.. i am also waiting for rich to get online so he can calm me down... he makes me soooo happy and i am glade we are together

well other thn that noting really just tring to calm down and get my head strait so ya tring to be happy

boyfriend delema

2009-01-16T13:46:00.000-08:00

ok well i now have a boyfrind but the past two days (the only days we have been together dating wise) he has been drunk and have been an ass whole... i dont know what to do cuz i have been wanting to date him for a while now and i have feelings for him but idk what to do.

he wanted me to have phone sex with him but i said no and he hung up on me then called me back and i fliped out then he hung up on me again i dont know what to do...

but today we were getting along and everything so idk

but anyway last night BUBBA RAY CAME BACK ON TNA I AM SO FICKING HAPPY LIKE YOU HAVE NO IDEA

then nick told me that he dont wanna be with johannah anymore so i am going to help him out by getting her pissed off at him and everythin like that i think it is mad funny lol.... but anyway idk

I GO BACK TO CARRER ACADAMY IN TWO WEEKS BITCHS i cant wait i am so happy that i am getting out of this hell hole and going back to the school i wanna be in lol

but peace i am going to think about what i am going to do in terms of ryan cuz i am that confused
lata

drama town

2009-01-13T17:03:00.000-08:00

wow i think i would have killed everyone that pisses me off today if i was not on one year condtional discharge....

hailey is a no good back staber that does not know what being a good friend is all about because she does not know how to do it...

she has to talk shit about me behind my back because she dont seem to be able to do it to my face. and in my head i am thinking wow this is the dumbest bitch of all time and not only that LARRY WAS ALL OVER MEGAN TODAY and she knows that i still like him alot beacuse i told her and you know what i see how he is with her in school and how he was with me in school and it piss's me off because they can be all over eachother and when we were together i would not even get a hug i am not in agood mood so you know what i will be the stupid girl in the coner that cant get a good boyfriend or keep them for that matter i am done you know what fuck everyone and everything there is no point for my living... i am not a setping sone or a mat that everyone can just walk all over.... oh and get this the person i like is confusing and wont answer me cuz i did ask him out so fuck it i am done peace

monday night raw 1/12/09

2009-01-13T16:54:00.000-08:00

last night some crazy shit happend...

chirs jerico got FIRED and i have never been so happy in my life lol i cant stand that guy

rey mysterio vs the miz and the all amazing rey mysterio won hell ya bitches then got jumped again from mike knox... this happends every week and it is retared if you aske me.
but this time rey was able to fight back about fucking time.... mike was the one to run away this time lol it was amazing...

cm punk vs william regal and cm punk hit him in the stomic but he made it seem like a low hit and cm punk got disqualified.... but stephiney micman was not happy and said that next week will be the 3ed and final match and it is a no disqualifcation match.... i cant wait

kane vs randy ortan and randy won cuz the reff is stupid and did not see that kane got his shoulder up before the 3 count was over... it was gay...

john cena vs HBK and hbk won but it was a very good match and i think it has been the best match i have seen in a while... i think you should youtube it... and watch lol

drama central

2009-01-12T17:16:00.000-08:00

today i would have t0 say that the drama was not that bad.... well i will start with school

auto

johanna is still running her mouth and she is lucky that i did not punch her in the face. the only reason that i did not hit her other then my one year conditional was the fact that she is dating my best friend and i dont want anything to comein between our friendship. but she was still saing that she knows more about him and it is just getting on my nerves she dont know him like i do...i also got georges number he is hot lol but i am prolly never going to call him.

lunch

haillie, aj, and me were all hanging out and talking adn aj walked away and then haillie told me that aj kissed her and that pissed me off cuz he talks shit about her all the time but i will get back to that in the next class

gym classssss

ok haillie wrote i love you to aj on his cell phone and i bitched her out cuz she just broke up with adam and she said that she loves him as well and it is really starteding to piss me off you can not get over someone that you love that quick i know becuase i am still not over josh or tracy and me and tracy have not been together for 3 years now going on 4 and me and josh have not been together for 3 mounths and someodd days so there for i know. and i bitched her out infront of everyone and also told her to get away from me before she ended up 6 feet under and she would still not shut up and the whole time i was bitching at her chase was right next to me waiting for me to get up to hit her so he could hold me back. i know that because i know chase. lol

bio

haillie ackted as if nothign happend and mike was himself as always.... a dick

after school

talked to nick and he might be going to jail

and other then that nothing

i hate my everyday confusing and somewhat amazing life and not only that i am still boyfriendless untill rich moves up here from jersey

today in tim town

2009-01-11T18:00:00.000-08:00

well today in tim town people got pissed. lol poor tyler got mat at himself beacuse of tims mistakes. i am not going to get into that beacuse i am not going to drag his feelings all around the web...

but i will drag my own. ok here i go. it was me,gina,tim,tyler,tom,and bitchface oh i mean jakie. and as soon as we got there it started in. he just had to bite me.

then aj,autumm,and chris showed up... they hung out for like a half hour then left.

then after they left me and tom draged tim into his bedroom and tom droped back and tim landed on him then i landed on tim and then tom moved and tyler poped out of the closet and it was kinda funny becuase he is gay and its awsome lol.

anyway me and tim started makeing out and then everyone left the room and more happend. then thats when jakie got jelious and tyler got mad at himself and i felt like a bad person and a bad friend.

i dont want to hurt my friends but this thing between me and and tim is weird. its like how you would explain a fly and a bugzapper. he is the bugzapper i am the fly. he has got me in his little trap and i cant seem toget out of it. but i am going to go and think about everything that happend tonight.

later

long day

2009-01-10T18:36:00.000-08:00

well i had to long of a day today. me and gina ended up not going to norwich which sucks but the roads are bad so there was nothing that we could do about it. and we found out last min that we were not going so that pissed gina off..

well other then that i am pissed at my mom cuz she does not relize that sassy (my aunts dog) does not bite people unless she is scared or they hurt her first and guess what alana got bit so in my eyes she got what was coming to her

i know she is only three but she keeps pissing the animales aff she needed to learn that she has to leave them alone and she dont know how to do that. i know that sounds wrong of me but sorry i am a very blunt person at times...

anyway i am sick and tired of people all together i think that i am going to just become anti social or something.... i dont know why but i am in that type of mood right now and that means that people should prolly not piss me off for a while lol well i am going to go back to what i was doing... lata

holy shit i am pissed

2009-01-10T11:31:00.000-08:00

ok well today is tylers birthday party and me and gina might not be able to get there you wanna know why cuz life is gay and the waether sucks balls. not only that but we might not be able to use the car over night...

but wait i just had a brain storm and i am thinking that maybe our friend andy could pick us up in

well i just called andy and he said he could so we have a way there and back no matter what lol

but from what i heard we are going to be getting a storm tonight and this is the worst day for this shit

the day i was looking forword to always has to be the day that something happens... i hate this shit. but ya i am leaving later homos and a half

news for the day

2009-01-09T19:19:00.001-08:00

well i went to o-town with gina today and got ty's birthday present. then we looked around the rest of the time we were there. i ran into an old friend and i was happy to see her. well in all weirdness she dated my brother and we still chat lol. and then we and gina went to clairs and tried on alot of shit that was fun. then off to rue 21 we went and we looked around and we bought legings(well gina bought 2 pairs one just happend to be for me lol)

then we walmart got to see the best of us today as well.
as you can see me and gina have no lives... but we try lol

other then that nothing
me and nick are fighting again but whats new... i dont care anymore he can choose whoever he wants to get in between our friendship... i give up

but i came home and now i am putting music on my mp3 player that has a touch screen AND NO PEOPLE IT IS NOT AN ITOUCH OR AND I PHONE

but other then that my day way boring lol and i hope tomaorw will be better

i am going to norwich with gina to see tim, tyler, and tom and chill for the night and shit like that cant wait

later

another day in drama town

2009-01-07T17:59:00.000-08:00

ok today in drama town i got into another fight with twitch... and this time it is beacuse he is leting his gf get in the middle if our friendship and it is pissing me off.. nick thinks his gf is amazing but i think she is a bitch that needs to get a life... she says she knows more about nick then i do and me and him have been BEST FRIENDS going on 2 years... i am sick of people running there mouths and not knowing how and when to shut them.... i know i am not perfect and everything but i am not going to go around and ruin peoples friendships....
i just want to keep nick as a friend but i dout that is going to happen because of his little gf.... and then fact that he cant stay outta trouble.... but that part dont really bother me.... i am just sick of people all together
i am just going to say fuck this and i am done.
well other than that i have not really done anything today other then put music on my mp3 player and want to kill people...